What I ain't got?

I can see endless traffic of Williamsburg Bridge from my fire escape, which I named balcony.When I go home and if sun is still high, I usually bring Pepsi and books to there. If I got tired of reading, I just chill, looking at people on the street.

It is fun because nobody notice I am watching them even hundreds of people passing by. I feel like I am transparency.

私がベランダと呼んでいる非常階段に出ると、

Williamsburg Bridgeの絶え間ない車の流れと、道を行き交う人々が見える。

家に帰ってもまだ日が高いときは、

コーラと本を持って外を眺める。

活字が嫌になったら、ただボーっとする。

こんなに人が居るのに、誰も私がベランダで一人一人を見てることに気付かない。

透明人間になった気分で時間を忘れる。

Nina Simone-I ain't no got

I ain't got no home, ain't got no shoes
Ain't got no money, Ain't got no class
Ain't got no skirts, Ain't got no sweater
Ain't got no perfume Ain't got no bed
Ain't got no mind, 

Ain't got no mother Ain't got no culture
Ain't got no friends, aint got no schoolin'
Ain't got no love, Ain't got no name
Ain't got no ticket, Ain't got no token
Ain't got no god 

and what have i got? 
why am i alive anyway?
yeah what have i got?
nobody can take away?...

Got my hair. Got my head
Got my brains, Got my ears
Got my eyes, Got my nose
Got my mouth, I got my smile 

I got my tongue, Got my chin
Got my neck, Got my boobies
Got my heart, Got my soul
Got my back, I got my sex 

I got my arms, got my hands, got my fingers,
got my legs, got my feet, got my toes,
got my liver, got my blood..

I've got life, 
i've got my freedom
i've got life
I've got life
and I am gonna keep it
I've got life
and nobody's gonna take it away
I've got life!

私が体現するマテリアリズムとは対極にあるこのうた。本来は奴隷の歌なので浅はかな考えかもしれないが、Nina Simoneのこの力強いメッセージを、物質主義＝２１世紀の奴隷制度と解釈してもいいだろうか。

最終的に、身体だけが本当に自分のものだ。それもいつかはなくなるけど。

そのことについて普段深くは考えないけど、生きているあいだ肉体は自分を置いてかないし、自分もそれを置き去りにはしない。 だから身体はきちんとケアしないといけない。

こんなふうに生きていきていけたらいいな、と強い憧れを心に持っているのに

生活はどうしても遠ざかる。欲望に惚け、荷物が増える。

あと４０年したら、こんなふうに身ひとつの雨にも負けずイズムで暮らしたい。

I think I am the authentic embodiment of materialism so this song is 180 degree opposite from me. This is actually the song of slavery, so if I say this maybe it sounds too shallow, but can I say materialism is the slavery of 21st century?I wish I could simply live like this, but I am too far. I am such a greed.. This song is simply the anthem of human body and soul. I never thought deeply about it, but only your body can takes you the place you go, and you can never leave your body behind when you go. So, what you truly own is only your body itself. No cash, clothes, cars, everything else is nonsense at the end of the day, because you don't really OWN it. That's why I have to keep good care of my body, because it's my best friend and only friend. 

May be the 40yrs later, I only have my bodies with minimum materials and full of appreciation of life, just live like Kenji Miyazawa-ish. If this word make sense.